Weight Classes Ruined Me
I’m 5 ft. 4 150 some lbs..when I started jiu jitsu I lingered around 145 lbs and when I gained a couple lbs, of mostly muscle I’d like to think, I didn’t think twice about the extra poundage. If anything I was glad I had the extra pounds and thought it might help my top game (how naive).
I’ve always been brought up to love my curves. I used to get upset when I lost weight because then that meant that either my butt or boobs were withering away and I couldn’t have that happen. I loved my curvy body and the soft parts of me. Once I was introduced to the fascinating world of jiu jitsu and had expressed interest in competing I was also introduced to the concept of weight classes. The only sports I had participated in school were track, needless to say I was never put in a position where I would have to pour over each lb.
There weren’t enough girls to make a weight class in the first few tournaments I competed in. However the gleaming cloud still lingered over my head. Now that I’ve agreed to fight amateur MMA I’ve realized a quick change in mindsets. The girl who loved her curves and could care less about the number on the scale has disappeared and now daily, even if I don’t have a tournament or fight coming up I’ve become obsessed with what I put in my body (que the “That’s what she said” joke).
I know that Americans especially should be more conscious of their health but for me I’m not obsessed with health I’ve now developed a complex about my weight, jiu jitsu and I can only admit that participating in sports that have weight classes ruined me. Don’t get me wrong I love jiu jitsu, and enjoy preparing for fights, but if I could reverse my newfound preoccupation with weight, I would. And with this preoccupation comes increased sensitivity and at some times insecurity. But why, I still look exactly the same, except for significantly larger muscles. This preoccupation has developed into a strange obsession.
Currently I’m “cutting weight” for my upcoming fight at 145lbs on November 19. One thing I’m greatly looking forward to is relaxing after the fight, getting comfortable with myself again, and simply enjoying food, training, and my body. As a fair warning to women that have just started jiu jitsu or inquiring minds, Weight Classes are NOT the end of the world, compete/fight where you’re comfortable. Don’t put yourself in the position where you’re obsessing to the point where it’s not fun anymore.